keeping up my end...

When I found out that I was with child- I freaked out, 

ate WAY too much, cried for a period of time I am not willing to admit, 

decided to read as much as possible about pregnancy and infancy. During that time period I felt confident about pregnancy (not to say I didn't have emotional weeks moments) and after taking a class about birth, 

I was strangely misinformed ready for labor and all that it would bring. 

Then, my sweet baby arrived, and after reading some more, I had Parker 

put on a schedule which he {I} loved.

Until recently.

I think because a lot of changes have happened- mostly to Parker (whole foods, walking, communicating etc)- he hasn't done as well with his schedule. It has fluctuated- obviously he isn't sleeping as often as he was at birth- but lately I have no idea when his naps will be. 

Friend: Hey, Aubrey! Want to go for a walk at noon today? 

Me: I don't know? Parker, do we want to go for a walk at noon or is that nap time today? 

Parker: puzzled look....

I have never been willing to have that as a lifestyle- but lately- it is what it is. 

And then I realized what it is. During pregnancy and infancy, I had read as much as I could, asked other seasoned Mom's their ideas etc. so I had a decent idea what was going on. 

Not. Any. More. 

I haven't picked up a single book on toddlers. I haven't asked anyone how to communicate with their 15 month old. Is there discipline at this age? If so, what is it? What the heck should I be doing with this kid?

If I am not keeping up my end, I can't expect the Lord to figure it all out for me! I need to show the Lord that I am seeking answers in all avenues and then seek His help in understanding how it all applies to my little PK. 

Ding. Ding. Ding. 

{Sometimes the light bulb just takes a little bit longer for me. :) }

So, if you have ANY tips, books, websites etc.- I would HAPPILY accept them.